Adam

Adam calls me through the blizzard,

Crying for his supposed savior.

Thinking I could end his torment

With all of my misbehavior.

I stumbled onward towards the shouting

And the distant hazy light

But as our Mary loomed before me

My eyes were blinded in her sight.

Mother Mary won’t you save me

From this masochistic game?

Your icy tears don’t comfort dearly,

Much is sadness all the same.

Adam’s arms are twisting through me

As I lay down in the street.

His hands enclose my eyelids tightly

“Won’t you come to bed, my sweet?

He found me early in the morning

Buried three feet deep in snow,

Clinging only to the notebook

Filled with things I used to know.

You Smoke the Same Brand As My Last

The man before you

Doesn’t count.

Shallowness showed

My feelings

Were no more than paper flowers

Crushed by the ice and snow.

Once the laughter left

his eyes,

I learned the depth of my devotion.

The lust I mixed with love

Flew quickly out the drain.

My body sagged

from the loss of false emotion.

Now I burn with scars

Of scruff and rough

Patches on my cheeks.

Still sagging,

now bruised too.

Menthol lingers

Filling my mouth

Tongue, teeth, and lips

With night’s secrets,

And I know.

You smoke the same brand

As my last.

Black Leather

Seep your way into my soul

Through layers of cloth that should be there

But lay forgotten on the floor.

“I love being touched”

And I love to touch you

So where does the problem lie?

The question hangs above us

Before slipping into the cushions

And getting lost forever.

Opposites Attract Yet We Repelled

Anger and love go hand in hand,

But only in our twisted way.

A hardened shell has turned me deaf to all you have to say.

Though we wish the fates had bode us well

We cannot fight the pulling tides.

For I was meant for another love

And you were meant for mine.

A hateful heart can feel no love

So what you lost you’ll never know.

The feelings that I meant to feel are melting with the snow.

I’ll leave you here where the cold winds blow

The same temp as your heart.

For I was meant for another’s love

But you were meant for mine.

I’m sorry for the pain I’ve caused.

But know it isn’t true.

To say those words have hurt me more than I could e’er hurt you.

For I was meant for another love

And you were meant for mine.

Yes you were meant for mine.

We Stand

I have fallen
into a mist
confusion
hazy smoke of exhaust
and the taste of you in me.

surround me
your scent
intoxicating
addictive
calling me
begging me to touch
when I wish it wasn't
against your will,
but I can't change
your mind
and you can't change
me.

So we stand.

Denial facing eyes

Yearning to love. Fade

into the dark night
where you left me standing
at the corners
of my sanity.